Excitement burst through me. Finally the thoughts of my mind and soul had found their expression in a blog. My head was reeling with excitement, future plans, worries, doubts and everything that a new venture brings with it. I was loving it. I was weighing options, going back and forth with worry and excitement on plans.
And then I hurt my head. I accidently hit my head on the arm of chair as I bent down to pick something up from the ground . As I stood up straight the head went spinning. I had tears of pain and bewilderment that a sudden jerk brings with it. My head hurt, I felt sick.
The head is where we think from. It houses the mind where most of us work from. The logical , the careful, the planner lived in the head and my head was hurt.
Worry overtook me as did pain. I couldn’t open my eyes to see. All I could do was lay down. A friend visited and we laughed together. I wasn’t thinking ,I was just feeling the pain and sharing in spontaneous talk. The pain subsided in a while as did the brief dizziness. And therein lay the lesson.
Live in the moment, laugh with a friend and worry not. We tend to overdo the weighing of our options. The logical mind keeps tipping the balance till our heads spin and mine did, literally!!
Finally I found gravity again. The ability to simply walk paying attention to each step. So without much worry about the future and mistakes that of the past , I choose to pay attention to this step. The step I have to take right now. It may be to correct a past mistake, or to build a future idea but the step is here, right now. It stems from the moment. Its beautiful, the ‘now’.